Hello World!!! I have been maxing and relaxing lately! I am really trying to prepare myself for the big change that is about to happen in my life. I don't know if I spoke on this or not but I will be quitting my job on October 13 and moving to Atlanta, Georgia. Yes, boring ass Indianapolis, Indiana can kiss my nice round black ass! I have been here 8 years and to be honest it has been 8 years to long! Indy was great for me at that particular time in my life when I came here. It honestly slowed me down! Coming from the Chicago area to here was a culture shock indeed! I honestly see why they call Indy, Napp Town! Because this town is really sleeping! It is so behind in music, fashion, and culture! I can go to Chicago and hear some song on the radio and come back to Indy and like 3 months later they are playing it talking about "here is that new shit". This place is so "late".

Now don't get me wrong! I am so thankful for the opportunity to come here! I say that because I was a wild child! I was use to clubbing and clowning! What I thought about hitting a bitch in their mouth was nothing! It was how I was raised. Growing up it wasn't about running or talking things out! It was either hit or be hit! It wasn't any arguing! When you were walking down the halls in high school and you had beef with someone. It went down right then and there! So that is what I grew up with! So of course it carried over into my adult life! So I admit it! I was the one at the club or the party that always shut it down because I was fighting! I recognize that about me now! But when I was 15-24, I didn't! I moved to Indianapolis because I want to get away from Gary, IN. I was a restaurant Manager for 8 years. Yes, it was McDonald's! Yes, I did go from fries to the Store Manager! Enough said, now moving on! I knew it was a dead end job for me. Around that time it wasn't any health insurance or retirement plan! I worked for an independent owner operator who was a cheap bastard. So I was just going through the motions to get a paycheck! Well, I went to Atlanta on Labor Day weekend! I had never seen so many gay, bisexual, curious men in my life! I had the best time of my life! So of course I feel in love with ATL! I went back to Gary and in less than a month I quit my job and moved there. I got a job, where, McDonald's Corporation! They put me up in a hotel for 6 months! So You know I was doing to much! Do I really need to say how much partying I was doing? Well, to make a long story short. I crashed and burned fast. 5 1/2 months had passed! I had not even looked for a apartment. I had spent all my money mainly on fashions and back then it was called "Guys and Dolls"! "I'm in love with stripper!" Then to top it off the store I was working at got robbed! I had a piston pointed at my head and all that. Now the 8 years I was in broke down, rough, shot a bitch with a wrong twitch, Gary! I never got robbed! Then come to "Hotlanta" and get a gun pointed at me. Well, I cut the fuck out! Went back to Gary with my tail between my legs! I got a job as a Correctional Officer at a prison! Now those two years were the best years of my life! I know you are thinking about the old saying "happier than an sissy in a camp full of dicks"! All the eye candy, samples, and full course meals you can handle! Now that is another blog entry! Well, after two years I got caught up in drama and made a mad exodus to Indy! I stayed in the Criminal Justice area! I traded in my inmates for a computer and running warrants and BMV checks! This job helped to slow me down! Indy settled me down and honestly made me grow up and be responsible! All the partying and stuff wasn't available to me here. I became a very private and secluded person! I honesty learned who I am inside and out! I learned that my sexuality doesn't dictate who I am! Because I like men doesn't mean that I have to act like a lady! I don't have to continue to date women so my so called "secret" won't be revealed! I realized that I have to love me, live for me, and do what makes me happy mentally, sexually, and emotionally! So I am so thankful for the opportunity to live here and learn who I am.

Now it's back to Atlanta! To the city that fed on all my weaknesses! The city that showed me if you live fast you can crash faster! The city that made me realize that I wasn't mature enough at that time to deal with life in the big city! I think I want to return to Atlanta to prove to myself that I can make it in a city where every sin you can think of is at your disposal! I want to develop new friendships of substance! I want to broaden my horizons. I want to enjoy life in a city that is less judgmental and more liberal! So Atlanta was my choice!

Do you think the reason I want to move back to ATL is because I feel like I failed at living there?

Let me know what you think people! I think I am liking this blogging thing! It is kind of like therapy!